Is this a prison?

       I might sound like a rebellious little girl who has never tasted a TRULY hard life given the privileged, lucky circumstances I live in compared to many people in the world, but no matter how good my day is, I always have the pending feeling that I'm trapped. Wherever I go. Like our society is a prison.
Do you know what I mean?

       This feeling comes from many different aspects of our society, but I especially get it from school. I go to a big school, surrounded by even bigger green spaces, and every single day, as I look out the window, I wonder, why is it that I am trapped in here, when I could be out there? And as time goes on, and school gets more and more stressful, I have the increasing sense that something is just not right. Don't get me wrong, I know school is important (and I'm lucky to be attending it), but I feel like it has became a much bigger deal than it should be. I don't know if this everywhere in the world, or if it's just in France or more particularly just in my school, but I think I can safely say that it has made many students, myself included, feel bad about themselves. It almost seems to me that school doesn't have as a goal to teach us stuff anymore, but to assign us a grade which ultimately rates us as a person. I have several teachers who have completely lost the joy in teaching, and prefer to yell at us instead.

       I know I am an overthinker, but I can't help but notice these things. It looks to me like school is just a test to see how apt we will be later on in life to obey the rules of society. I go to school five days a week, from 8:45 to 4:30, and have (excuse my language) a shitload of homework  to complete when I get home (... I am talking HOURS). I probably have, on average, an hour of free time per day, if I don't go to bed after 11 p.m. And I'm getting seriously sick of it.

Now tell me: is this how you've lived/live school? Is it just MY situation that's oppressing? I know that many, if not most, countries around the world,only  have a half day of school. To me that sounds like a much better system. And sometimes I imagine all the things I would do differently to reform the school system to make it customizable, a system where each student can study itheir domains of interest and therefore make the whole experience more enjoyable.

there is no "after homework". there is only homework.  True story.

All of this to say... I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS SUMMER. I am more than ready for vacation, sun, and fun to start. :)
    Happy first day of June!

Hello June


  1. That sounds pretty similar to my daughter's experience of UK education :-(

  2. I'm home schooled and school for me is from 6:30ish to right around seven (or later maybe). Being home schooled is an entirely different system, but I can still relate to feeling trapped, at times anyway. There are so many things I want to do - write and read and make things and talk to people and blog - but some days it just feels like all my time is eaten up by school, which is frustrating. But then I have the reassuring knowledge that what I'm learning in school is honestly useful, and I love to learn, I want to (on good days ;)).
    All of this to say summer really is wonderful. :) I hope you have an awesome one.


    1. I've always wondered what it would be like to be home schooled. :) I had no idea it was such a busy schedule!

  3. This sounds very similar to me! (especially the past 3 years!!) I look out the window and I just think why am I stuck in here.. what happened to recess? ... is what the teacher teaching us really worth it? I'm not sure honestly, but all I know is that summer is coming soon and I'm ready to be free!!
    I'm hoping that all my hardwork in school does pay off and that one day I will be out working enjoying the world and traveling hehe!
    Good luck to you and remember that summer is coming soon!!

    1. we think alike :) it's true, this work HAS to pay off someday...there are just some things I study which I have a hard time finding what I could possibly use it for later in my life :P

  4. Aw... I totally get what you mean... >< Well, summer's here!!! Yay.

    Oh and I awarded you over on my blog. Check it out soon, maybe? Here's the link:


    1. Thank you so much for the award! I've been busy... but I just added it to my to-do list! :)

  5. ohyes. that feeling.
    but what's important is that summer is FINALLY here.

  6. this post is literally just so perfect - i agree with you 100%.
    i was actually going to write a post about the restrictions of society and how we're all just slaves to the government and was thinking, would you be interested in writing a paragraph or two for it, or just something i could quote/ refer to?
    email me at and let me know! (:
    amy // The Blog Hermit

    1. I would love to help you write that post! Thanks for the offer! I'll get back to you soon :)